My body was dealing with a lot. Emotional and intimal changes, an unhealthy relationship, and being locked at home, anxiety symptoms erupting at my body with the fear of losing a loved one and being far away from my home town. Death became way too near. I felt arrhythmia every day. Cold feet. Cold hands. Jaw locked. I couldn't eat. Lost weight, I couldn't sleep. And that roller coaster feeling that COVID brought into my life resulted in post-traumatic stress syndrome. I believe strongly that Self-portraiture and Video performance can have healing powers.